I was browsing a few other blogs this morning and came across a couple posts about praying over at the Quiet-Mom blog. You can check them out by clicking the links below:
Beginning Everything with Prayer
More on Prayer from Annette
This is really awkward for me to say out loud, but sometimes I find it difficult to pray. It’s really one of the areas of my life that I want to work at making better. The hardest part is that I know it is holding me back from so much by not having that close relationship with God through praying.
Now, don’t get me wrong, I DO pray, but I just feel awkward when I do sometimes. Just ask the ladies at my weekly bible study on the nights I’m asked to open up with prayer.
I don’t feel like I’m as close to God as I want or need to be because I get tongue tied, spend a lot of time thinking about what I should say, etc. After reading Annette’s second post I realized I’m trying to “get it right” and the perfectionist comes out in me even with God who knows more about me than anyone ever could. In other words, I’m being me but not being me, if that makes sense.
God knows I’m a perfectionist and he already knows that I struggle in the area of prayer, right? So, am I really keeping it real with him when I pray and stumble and throw things in the prayer just for conversation sake?
Tough question, because on one hand yes, I’m keeping it real by being the real me and not just making something up to pray about for the sake of saying I prayed. But…on the other hand, I’m not opening myself up and just saying “Father, I’m not really sure what to say right now, so can you help me in the way only you can?”
I know this post probably confused many of you, but I’d like to know…
Do you ever have a similar problem when it comes to praying? How do you keep it real with God - or do you just take the fact that he knows what you’re going to do before you do and let it be?